Hey, readers
Right now, I feel unmotivated about everything in life, lost, and unable to find any sense of drive. It’s hard to admit, but my life has always been full of ups and downs. Sometimes, I feel like I’m on the right path, but these past weeks, exhaustion has taken over, leaving me without motivation.
It’s difficult to explain. I’m studying as little as possible, barely managing to push through. This week, I haven’t felt the happiness I once had. I know, for a fact, that life is tough—it always has been for me, ever since I can remember. But this time, it’s not sadness or depression. It’s more like a deep confusion. I feel like I have to put in an enormous amount of effort just to achieve anything, constantly worrying—not only about everything around me but also about my future.
There’s so much uncertainty, even though I understand where these thoughts come from. They are rooted in the past, a past that no longer exists, yet it still weighs on me. Despite all this confusion, I have an underlying feeling that everything will be okay. Somehow, life will become easier to navigate. But right now, I feel exhausted and drained.
I hope my thoughts will eventually transform into something calmer and more beneficial. Empty the mind, throw away the unnecessary weight, and embrace the void—maybe that is where peace lies.
This is how I feel now. But I know that feelings are not permanent. This will pass, and I will find a way to overcome this moment. Let’s see what life has in store for me. I may feel lost and a little sad, but never hopeless.
After all, what is a human without hope and faith? I wouldn’t wish the absence of those on anyone. As long as hope and faith exist, everything will be okay. Unless, of course, Krishnamurti was right—perhaps hope and faith are illusions that create dualism. If we observe our thoughts, maybe we’ll see that they are just constructs of the mind.
But I am not at that point in my life. For now, hope and faith are working fine for me. Let’s see if, in the future, Krishnamurti had a point or not.
Carlo is a driven and adaptable software developer with a passion for continuous personal and professional growth. He embraces challenges as opportunities for learning and self-improvement, always seeking new perspectives and innovative solutions. Whether navigating obstacles in his career as a Software Developer or in his role as an IT Support Engineer, Carlo approaches each situation with resilience and a growth-oriented mindset. His commitment to personal development and his ability to thrive in the face of change make him a valuable contributor to any team or community.